Change: It could be small or big. Internal or Physical. Life Altering or opinion altering. Good or Bad.
We’ve all experienced change at some point. For some, it is unexpected and even not wanted. Others encourage it and look it right in the eye as it is coming towards them. For myself, I usually experience it feeling like I’m being tossed around. When the turbulence is gone I am standing in the still, wondering where to move.
The past couple of months have been full of never-ending ‘changes’ that have caught me holding on as tight as I could to what I know is true. The pain and suffering that were being masked. The tears were being held back until I had moments alone. The lies from the sentence, “I’m fine”. We have all been there at some point.
I know God uses some of the hardest, lowest, ugliest, moments to show the great gap in the contrast between our situation and His Mightiness. During the toughest moments, if you listen real close you can hear God trying to reveal Himself in different ways to you. Some of the most profound moments I’ve found with the Lord where He has brought the most breakthrough in my life are when I am left with no other options but to turn to Him. I think this is the point He constantly tries to make. After a big ‘change’ we keep turning to everything but God, in hopes for the fulfillment we are looking for. When all the other cheap alternatives are gone we have nothing else to give, nothing else to lose, nothing else but to look to Him and ask for Him to step into our place. I think many of us forget that He has already taken our place from the pain we are experiencing. He did this way before we turned to cheap alternatives, way before we were faced with the pain, and way before we were born. The day He took our pain away from us was when he died on the cross and said “It is finished.” (John 19:30)
Just because you’re a Christian does not mean to say that you will never experience pain on this Earth. Some of the strongest Christians who have been put in my life have experienced pain from a change in their life that is physically unbearable and emotionally scarring. Still they hold true to the promise that they will be in Paradise someday and feel no more pain.
A couple of weekends ago I had the chance to worship alongside 11,000 brothers and sisters in Christ at a conference. During one of the sessions, I found myself writing down this prayer.
May I always be wide-eyed to Your Graces that you give each and every day. I want to live a life where I am not always expecting but am just as surprised and wide-eyed by You.
The funny thing about this prayer is that I forget that in order for God to bring great change and grace in my situation he needs to shake up the ground I am standing on. God doesn’t cause bad things to happen in this world. The fallen world that we live in is the reason for the pain and changes that we face. His grace just allows us to hold on and stand up on the platform that He has provided to cover up the pain. The platform we get placed on permits us to reach and connect with others who have been experiencing similar troubles. We often think that God will take all of our problems and change our situation when we turn to Him. He changes things, just not always in the way we expect Him to.
“Hard times are a passport that gives you permission to go places you wouldn’t get to any other way. Pain can open doors that would otherwise be locked. There are avenues of influence. There are situations and opportunities you will stumble upon that would never had been yours had things gone well. Interactions, conversations, moments of great usefulness you probably would never have seen had it not been for the chemotherapy, doctors visits, or trip to yet another rehab facility to pick up your son.” – Levi Lusko, Through the Eyes of a Lion
HIS THOUGHTS ARE HIGHER THAN MINE… THEREFORE, I AM LEFT TRUSTING HIM WITH THE GAP.
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